wilkes

Yes I do, but this is Sunday.. and Sunday has always depressed me...do you have to work tomorrow?

Get up! Go out! And get some lunch!

The weight of world.... Just weighs down...

Down upon your shoulders... And you wonder....

Where did I go wrong??

Don't you ever just feel broken?

Torn....

And yes... I do put my big girl panties on. Every freakin day I put them on!

But today! I refuse!! Today I wallow!

I am wallowing in sorrow and pain. In the pain of heartaches and what ifs....

In the pain of life. Life sucks....

And then comes tomorrow....

I'm not ready for tomorrow yet.

Today... Today I am going to wallow.

Today... I wallow.

Today. I hurt.

Today. I am broken.

Today... I feel so far behind.

Today I just feel broken.

Broken and old

Oh god...have I just been ......

Do you feel like you are being pulled backward?

Stop it right now!!!, You are here asking for something, and people are trying to help.

So pull on your big girl panties and let's all just talk about it.

I struggle every day! Every **** day. I have no WIC. No EBT. No child support. I work. I work hard ****it.
And I do it with a smile!

But not today!

Today...

I cry

But that's just it...

I don't. If you knew me. You'd know... I don't. I hide behind my smile. No one knows. I fight it.
It's a constant battle.

And really... I don't feel sorry for myself.

Except for today.... Today... I wallow in despair... I admit it! Today I am weak! I give up!!

You can't move on because you spend too much time feeling sorry for yourself.

Sounds like you are a little burned out today. A good nights sleep will make tomorrow seem a lot better. I have been through days like this and believe me they don't last.

One day... Whether you are 14, 28 or 65... You may stumble upon upon another, who starts a fire so deep inside of you, it will never die....

However, the awful, most saddest truth may be... You may ever come to find, is that they are not the one with which you may spend your life...

And soo you move on....

Right??

Then why 28 years later... Why can't I move on???

That's only one of the many little demons haunting me today...

Life sux sometimes...and the past will eat you alive if you let it.

But if you can't change it,let it go.

It's just... The sadness comes at times and can knock the crap out of you.

The regrets. The bills. The responsibilities. Life.

Life is hard!! At times you just wanna give up and well... Just have a good cry!!

I walk around so strong everyday.
Not today.

Today I'm not strong. I'm worn down.

That's a creepy song.

well, sorta....

It's a poem

Dang!! All I gots is...enjoy the mud!!!