wilkes

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If you never see your first love, bet your memories are much better than the real thing. Oh lord the boys I've moped and cried over.

And they are all saying Thank You,,, There is a God !!!

Try not to think about what might have been,

Cause that was then and we have taken different roads.

We can't go back again, There's no use giving in.

There's just no way to know, What might have been.

Ahhh.... Love at first sight.... (((Sigh)))) forbidden from the beginning.... Only briefly tasted many years later.... And then cut short in the blink of an eye... Life sucks that way I suppose...:

And then longed for ever since.... Still forbidden....

Of all the reasons to be sad maybe a lost and unrequited love is the best.

Ahhh.... Glitter.... The memories of the few over the last 28 years....

Nothing gets you over the last one like the next one(s).

If you never see your first love, bet your memories are much better than the real thing. Oh lord the boys I've moped and cried over.

And no.... The man I fell for... Ya know... The "love at first sight" that books are written about and all....

The one I layed eyes on at 17...... (((Sigh)))). Yeah... He isn't the baby's daddy....

In case ya'll was goin there :-/

I understand Wallow, sound like you really need a day to well, wallow. Hope tomorrow and the rest of your life is better.

going *through my

Kenny, that's just one of many thoughts going they my mind today.

Along with sooo many others that one must just mask over. The life I live... I know that it is one that is of my own making.... A result of choices I have made. And I work hard to provide for myself and my child. With no support. No government support. Nor support from anyone else.

It's my responsibility. But it's a BIG ONE. And ya know what. It's hard. It's hard as ****! I will admit it. At least today, I will. Right now, I will. It's hard as crap. I'm tired! I feel broken.

Will I get up and put my big girl panties on tomorrow?? **** straight!

But today.... Today I cry.

So let us all know Jason......how much did you get?

Have at it ! You don't need our permission .

Today.... I just want a free day. A day to wallow and release the tears...

Just let them out!!!

i no how u feel that wht they want to do

I know exactly how you feel. Been in your shoes for years now. No one is the wiser, I just smile and go about my business and no one notices the loneliness in my eyes.

This place of darkness... It is a very scary place...

But I know... That I am strong and I will work my way back. Eventually.

I know.. Because I a fighter. I may wallow now. And welcome the darkness as I terrified of it at the same time....

Still, I just want to cry. Maybe I will cry for puppies...