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1goddess
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Posted 9:34 am, 10/13/2016
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"It is hard. He told me to take care of my momma. I will carry out that duty. Once she is gone my journey here is finished and i am going home.
After fighting for life 20 years ago, fighting this to stay sane right now, and next mom i will be worn out and have nothing spiritually, mentally, and physically left to fight with."
I'm sure this is only grief and shock speaking....yes Dec, it's hard, one of the hardest thing you will ever have to do. But even in this darkest time of your life....giving up is not something that your father would want you to do. Life, must be fought to live....we fight on many different levels every moment of the day...yes, it gets tiresome alot of the time...but to honor your father....you will live and most of all learn to live life to the fullest all that you can everyday, this is what your dad would want you to do! He wouldn't want you to give up....and right now, your mom needs you more than you need your grief.
Stay strong dec, you got this!
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Bestill
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Posted 9:25 am, 10/13/2016
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Seriously, you are creeping your mother out. Stop it!
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Bestill
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Posted 9:22 am, 10/13/2016
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You are doing your mama no good sleeping in your truck at Walmart. She worries, do not cause her worry. That is the last thing she needs now. She needs her boy to pull himself together,
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Bestill
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Posted 9:16 am, 10/13/2016
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Dang Dec! Pull yourself together.
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Crypt
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Posted 8:43 am, 10/13/2016
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decsurvey, may the courage, strength, love and understanding which only an event such as this brings, be with you. My condolences to you and your family.
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decsurvey
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Posted 1:01 am, 10/13/2016
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It has been so painful. At night i miss him getting ready for bed then hollaring "I am going to sleep, hollar if you need me". Those words echo through my mind every night so far. I miss taking him to Coffee House on Connelly Springs Road in Lenoir to eat his "whopper". The people there miss him dearly. It was an emotional place when I went in to fell them.
Last words my dad said to me were "Are you leaving me up here tonight". I explained where he was and he understood. Told him I was going home and he said "be careful" and good night.
I miss him asking me what day it is, what time it is.
I have never felt pain so hard and deep. I wakeup and go to his bedroom to check on him and he is not there.
Last two nights ai have had to leave the house after having a breakdown at 1 in the morning. I go to coffee house and eat then to Walmart parking lot to sleep in truck.
It is hard. He told me to take care of my momma. I will carry out that duty. Once she is gone my journey here is finished and i am going home.
After fighting for life 20 years ago, fighting this to stay sane right now, and next mom i will be worn out and have nothing spiritually, mentally, and physically left to fight with.
I thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.
I will post the obit. It is time on here you know who you are conversing with.
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Daddy P
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Posted 6:25 pm, 10/12/2016
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Decsurvey, I am so sorry about your Father. I know how much you loved him and that he meant to you . It was very evident from your posts how much you loved him and were a great son . I'm sending you a hug and prayers. Please feel free to talk to us if you need to . You can PM me if you need someone to talk to .
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backwater
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Posted 1:48 pm, 10/12/2016
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I am so sorry about your loss of your father Dec.May he RIP.
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empowers
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Posted 10:07 am, 10/12/2016
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Here's a hug decsurvey. 
Have always believed that those who pass on are not far from us. We are here for a purpose and your dad found his. He has now fulfilled that purpose.
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Hot Mess
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Posted 7:25 am, 10/12/2016
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I'm sorry for your loss.
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MarieLaveau
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Posted 6:47 am, 10/12/2016
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May our Heavenly Father send showers of blessings upon you,family & friends. Sorry.
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countyline
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Posted 6:43 am, 10/12/2016
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Please accept my condolences.
My dad left us 30 years ago in a very fast and unexpected way. His life, like your dad's, was committed to my sister and I. Without his push and encouragement, I don't know what I'd be doing or where I'd be living. He was everything to me and EVERY TIME I think of giving up or quitting, I hear his voice. It tells me, " you can do it" , " don't give up". A moonshiner and a 6th grade dropout, he knew what hard work was and wanted us to have it better. He wanted us to understand hard work pays off. Most importantly, I know what a great dad is and so do you.
Your dad sounds like a good dad, was a GREAT dad! You now have the task of living the life he wanted for you. He gave you all the support needed to reach this point. He expects you to live life a life he can brag about to the angels who are now his neighbors.
Going forward is the best way you can honor him. You will never have a day that you don't think of him. My prayer for you is God's peace and comfort.
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pdtw
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Posted 6:37 am, 10/12/2016
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 The pain of losing a loving father is unlike any pain that could ever be felt. Please know that we are praying for you as you try to get through this. Please let us know if there is anything else at all that we can do for you.
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I C
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Posted 1:29 am, 10/12/2016
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Sleepy
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Posted 1:21 am, 10/12/2016
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chendo
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Posted 12:58 am, 10/12/2016
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youkidding
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Posted 11:10 pm, 10/11/2016
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you are in my thoughts and prayers
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